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Hooks

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  The despised hook, you hate it, you love it, you hate the feeling, you love the high it gives you. You hate being played, you avoid it, you learn from your mistake, you get off the hook, you screw up again, you’re on the hook, again. You’re happy but you’re sad, can’t process your feelings, can’t understand what is happening or what had happened. “It all happened too fast” you tell yourself, take a moment to relax, take a deep breath, clear your mind, think things through. The biggest mistake you could make now is to get hooked twice, so think twice, before every action, every word, every step you make, say or take around that person. If your feelings are right, then great, if not, then you’re dodging your demise by an inch. Stay true to yourself, true to your identity and to who you are, don’t force it, don’t fake it, if they see your worth then you’ll make it. If not then it’s their loss. - Avoid the hook - Make yourself a priority, work on yourself to become the person you hav...
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Vulnerable and Breathless

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  It's not usually easy to tell that you've fallen for someone... until your heart skips a beat the moment you see them, you're out of breath the moment they cross your mind, you can't stop gazing them. Once they're always on your mind, it's the beginning of the end. They will never leave, not anytime soon at least. Although you always had thought that no one would affect you in such way, yet here you are. In complete vulnerability towards that person. No matter how much you try to convince yourself, "They don't like me", "it's not like that", "i don't stand a chance", "why would it ever be me?", "this is a waste of time", "it's too good to be true". Yet you know how it works, the brain and the heart always have to contradict one another. You have your guards up for everyone, except that one person. You can not resist them, the thought of them, their smile, their eyes, you simply can not...
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Between the Otherworlds

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  I don’t know how i want to start writing this but I’ll just give it a go, going through my notes it made me realize how much I’ve endured and how much I’ve grown, how many times I’ve been betrayed and how many times i got back up.. so I’m not stopping now. It’s been almost two months since i moved abroad, I’m living in a whole new world. New cultures, new experiences, new people, new things I’ve never heard of before and actions i never expected.  Over those two months I’ve had the walk through the otherworlds, I was and still am torn apart between heaven and hell.  It all started with a mix of fear, anxiety, excitement, happiness and somehow sadness, two opposites being present simultaneously seems like an impossible thing but i could swear i felt it, i swear i still do.  I am so proud of myself for making it this far, i am so happy and lucky to be here, yet i still can’t feel genuine happiness… why is there always a need for more?  No matter how many people ...
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Identity

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I do not identify as who, neither do I identify as what. I have broken every law, grammatical, physical or mental. I am a bullet that knows no friction. A bullet that does not know when to stop. I am unstoppable. I am a mother seeking shelter for her little ones. I am a leader sacrificing everything for the pack. I. AM. UNSTOPPABLE. Yet although all of those could have been good, they are not. I get stronger when life pins you down. The lower you go the stronger I am. Here, to shatter you and your ego. To grab you and throw you off your high horse. Regardless of whether you deserved being there in the first place or not. I call myself Man of the Mists although I am not a man, but I am mystical. I am a combination of your biggest fears, your greatest weaknesses and your flaws, I am a blackhole that siphons all your thoughts only to throw them back at you. I am everything yet I am nothing. I am the emptiness within your heart, I am the strange feeling in your gut. I am the mist that blo...
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